| NIKKI AYRES |
I’m lucky enough to live near Nikki and have been able to attend her yoga class and Soul Circles, which are AMAZING! Nikki is such a beautiful light in this world, spreading love wherever she goes, but what I love most about her is her openness and authenticity. Her story is incredibly inspiring, and she is always using her light and wisdom to guide and empower other women to love themselves for who they are.
Nikki Ayres is an Australian Based Yoga Teacher, Certified Health Coach and runs International and National based Yoga retreats with the passion to show others to reflect a life that they love. Nikki’s duty as a Health Coach, Yoga Teacher, Speaker and Writer is to rise up and show you that underneath all the fears beholds one beautiful shinning light of limitless potential. We are all insanely unique and this universe needs you to RISE up and make the shift in living one juicy ass kicking life.
Nikki is passionate about raising awareness for mental illness and educating her students and clients on the importance of self love and positive self talk.
“You have a choice. You can continue to neglect your desires. Or you can put your hand on your heart, trust the burning passion that is inside of you, and just start living your dreams whole heartedly”
WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO JUST GO FOR IT, AND START LIVING THE LIFE YOU LOVE? WAS THERE A TURNING POINT OR AN ‘A-HA’ MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU REALISED YOU NEEDED TO MAKE THE CHANGE?
Rewind to 5 years ago working in a job fuelled by my ego, around energy vampires that pulled me down and didn’t lift me up, addicted to caffeine even though I hated the taste of coffee and emotionally, physically and spiritually burnt out. During my corporate days working in an office I would pass the time by listening to ‘The Secret’ and other inspirational audios while doing my work, I then started an affirmations email list that I sent to the office and then that list grew to a few hundred. It became the only reason why I wanted to show up at work each day so I could give out a loving message to those who needed it. As a result I was getting asked for life advice, guidance and help from my subscribers. I had an Ah HUH moment and was like “I don’t know how but my purpose is to serve in a way to help heal others”. What followed was multiple synchronicity moments that forced me to leave my job and dive into my Health Coaching Studies and become a qualified yoga teacher. It was a hard road because I was battling my ego, my concerned parents and friends, and going against the normal and all that I knew. Looking back it was the best change I have ever made.
HOW IS YOUR LIFE DIFFERENT NOW AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU?
During my transition period of living out of my head and into my heart I fell deep into a depression and a whole lot of “life” happened all at once. I went through the dark knight of the soul and wound up in hospital trying to take my life back. I had to relearn how to love myself, I had to let go of every thing I could no longer control, I had to be gentle with myself and drop the comparison and judgment that I was living with for so long. So from leaving my job, overcoming mental illness and now thriving in my business and not just surviving I now see every day as one big giant blessing. It’s rare for me to have a “bad” day, what I had gone through put everything into perspective. My life is in flow, I have beautiful friendships who lift me up and support me, I am doing work that I love and sharing my light with the world in my unique way, I am abundant, healthy, happy and content and it feels good to be living in this way.
WHAT WAS YOUR GREATEST FEAR OR BLOCK (EMOTIONAL, MENTAL OR PHYSICAL) THAT YOU HAD TO OVERCOME TO GET WHERE YOU ARE, AND HOW DID YOU BREAK THROUGH IT?
The moment the my doctor looked me dead straight in the eyes and said “Nicola you have Bipolar, you will no longer be able to teach yoga, you defiantly cannot coach others. BUT you will find work that will get you by while on your medications”- it was like someone robbed me of my soul in that moment. My future looked bland and uninspired, the label “Bipolar” was extremely new to me and I was told that it was with me for life, and I was heart broken to think that what he said was the truth. For a solid week I believed into his words, I started to mourn the death of my dreams of one day holding international yoga retreats, coaching women and running a successful yoga business and my mind became little and small as I fit the mold of what it was like to live with such a label.
I am not sure what changed within me, I would like to think it was a message from my guides, my angels and my intuition all at once that told me to WAKE UP and get to work. The light bulb moment happened and I knew that this label does not define me, it does not own me and I refuse to play small because I had a small hiccup that resulted in immense pain and suffering. I was never born with this illness, I didn’t have it 6 months ago or a week ago so it was brought on my myself, from my external environment and filtering down into my internal state of mind. If I brought it on myself I could then let it go. And so I did…
Every day I did yoga in the hospital foyer, I meditated and journaled, I practiced gratitude, I ate healthy, I started to talk about my hopes and dreams again. I got out of hospital and healed myself in my own ways with the ocean, with an energy healer and with some really good books. The medication did not serve me and I went off it and over time I felt like myself and things started to get back into alignment.
Fast forward to 9 months out of hospital and I am running retreats, planning an international retreat, running a successful yoga and coaching business and that conversation with the doctor and the fear and blocks that came from that no longer served a purpose in me and I let it go. I simply made my pain mu purpose and still got to achieve my dreams and goals.
HOW DID OPENING UP AND ‘BEING AUTHENTICALLY YOU’ AFFECT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU OR YOUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEM?
I have always walked the beat to my own drum, I think that comes with the trait of being a powerful Aquarian woman, and authenticity is a trait that I am so proud of. When transitioning from PR chic to Yogi Free Spirit, I had a few friends that dropped off, and that’s ok because I was changing and people can change and grow with you or they can stay on their own path. Years later those same friends now come to me for advice, yoga and coaching and I am so blessed to now help guide them on their journey. When you stay true to yourself it’s the biggest gift in the world because you’re living from the heart and you can’t fake that, your vibes then begin to attract your tribe and lets just say I have an awesome tribe of people in my life.
DID YOU FACE ANY JUDGEMENTS OR CRITICISMS, WHETHER FROM YOURSELF OR OTHERS?
Yes, Yes, YES. It’s inevitable that judgement and criticisms creeps in during this journey of life. We are our biggest critics and our subconscious mind is always ticking and a lot of the time judging every move we make. Luckily we can break free and detach our self from what I like to call it the “itty bitty shity committee” and I ask my self “is this thought true? Does this thought serve me?” And then I shift my perspective and move through the ickyness into love.
Fears, judgement and criticism comes to the surface from others and this is because others hold onto their own fears, their own insecurities and their own karma. I witnessed first hand my mum filling my mind with fear, as she said that ‘owning my own business is too hard and that I won’t have what it takes’. I then asked her how she felt about owning her own business and she said she ‘would never do it because it’s too hard’. In that moment I saw that what she’s reflecting to me is what is inside of her self. You need to learn to not listen to others advice when necessary and follow the road less travelled.
WHAT IS YOUR TRUE ESSENCE? THE NATURAL PART OF YOUR BEING THAT MAKES YOU SPECIAL.
LOVE. I am love down to my core, I was lucky enough to be born on the day of love (Valentines Day) and my gift to the world is to expand the loving vibrations as far as I can and to every one who comes into my presence.
WHAT DO YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF?
EVERYTHING. FULL. STOP.
WHERE DO YOU FIND BEAUTY AND INSPIRATION?
The ocean speaks to my soul, it heals me, it inspires me and I find its beauty breathtaking. I also gain inspiration when I am on the yoga mat in my own personal practice, and from my amazing clients and students. Hearing their own stories and sharing from the soul lights me up and gives me the fuel to create more.
AS A CHILD, WHAT DID YOU ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO DO?
I loved to sing and perform, get me on a stage and I would entertain anyone that was willing to watch.
WHAT LIGHTS YOU UP AND WHY?
Delicious soulful open-hearted and inspired conversations and doing work that I absolutely love and adore. It doesn’t get much better than that.
WHEN LIFE GETS BUSY, OVERWHELMING AND THE NEGATIVITY STARTS TO CREEP IN, HOW DO YOU UNWIND AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO ‘JUST BE’?
I take myself down to the ocean, it has all the answers. I journal or pop on my voice memo and have a deep and meaningful with my myself and I and get to the root of the situation. All the answers lie within and it’s just about slowing down and getting back in touch with your intuition and taking a few deep breaths and reciting my favourite moto “Stop taking yourself so god damn seriously”.
WHAT MESSAGE DO YOU HAVE FOR OTHER WOMEN WHO ARE WANTING TO RECONNECT WITH THEIR OWN NATURAL WAY OF BEING AND FIND THE BEAUTY WITHIN THEMSELVES?
Where you are right now is perfect and divinely inspired. Move along with love and be gentle on yourself. Accept and fall in love with your own life and stop comparing and wishing your life away. We all have an inner light that needs to shine and you are no different, do what lights you up and you will light up the world.
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE YOU?
Content. Inspired. Loved. Grateful.