beautiful being

|  HEIDI ROSE  |

To kick off this series, I thought I’d start with an interview with yours truly, so you could get to know me a little deeper, and gain a greater understanding of why I created this series, along with my intentions and hopes behind it.

The old me would have cringed at the fact that I’ve even classed myself in the category of a ‘Beautiful Being’, and been way too embarrassed to reveal this to the world, but I now recognise that I’m just as amazing as everyone else is, and have a story that is worth sharing.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO JUST GO FOR IT, AND START LIVING THE LIFE YOU LOVE? WAS THERE A TURNING POINT OR AN ‘A-HA’ MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU REALISED YOU NEEDED TO MAKE THE CHANGE?

Years ago, I wasn’t happy- with myself and with my life in general. Nothing was inspiring or really exciting, I just was following the ‘norm’, stuck in the daily grind and working jobs I didn’t like because that’s just what everyone does! But I knew I didn’t like my life the way it was and I guess somewhere along the line I figured out that I needed to start finding inspiration and make some changes. It’s been a gradual process over the last few years of figuring out what I love and want to do with my life, so there was never one particular turning point. Every day I’m learning something new about myself and the world around me, so I think just becoming more aware of myself and remaining open-minded is what allowed me to begin making positive changes and explore different options.  
I used to babysit the adorable twins of Justine Watt, a Natural Therapist, who completely opened my eyes to the world of health and wellbeing, so I honestly have her to thank for everything! She inspired me to go down this path, and if it wasn’t for her, I don’t know what my life would be looking like right now! My husband also had a huge role to play, as he was the one who continued to encourage and convince me to stop teaching, and to pursue my passions, which at the time was nutrition and natural health. My Mum has also been so supportive, and always said that she doesn’t care what I do, she just wants me to be happy. So being surrounded by this beautiful group of people who just want the best for me, definitely gave me the confidence to take the leap and create a new path for myself, when I was still unsure of myself at the time.

HOW IS YOUR LIFE DIFFERENT NOW AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU?

Reflecting back to a few years ago, my life is SO different now! While in some aspects it is still the same, and I am still the same person, I’ve just grown and evolved so much, and completely changed my relationship with myself for the better. I used to be a really negative person, but now I feel like my life is filled with so much more positivity, and I have gained a huge awareness around myself and my reactions, and now know how to better handle situations that would previously trigger me.
Awhile ago I came across photos from myself from late primary school and early high school, and it was such a strange feeling- I felt so upset that I used to hate myself so much, because looking at the photos now, I couldn’t understand what there was to hate. I was sad for my younger self who spent so many years comparing herself to everyone else, but it made me realise how far I’ve come and how much more happier I truly am with myself and in my life. I don’t have to turn up to jobs I hate anymore, I don’t spend my time with people who pull me down, and I get to work on things that I’m passionate about and which fill me with inspiration.
Instead of floating along in life, getting dragged around, I realise that I am the conscious creator of my life and I get to choose my own reality.

WHAT WAS YOUR GREATEST FEAR OR BLOCK (EMOTIONAL, MENTAL OR PHYSICAL) THAT YOU HAD TO OVERCOME TO GET WHERE YOU ARE, AND HOW DID YOU BREAK THROUGH IT?

Most definitely the fear that “I’m not good enough”, which is not surprising to me now because, after studying belief systems and the subconscious mind, I’m aware that this is actually one of THE biggest and most common deep-rooted fears that most people have. Our society is constantly telling us we’re not good enough- subliminal messages are always making us feel like we have to buy things so we can look better, feel better, and have a better life. But when you think about it, it’s pretty ridiculous!! Who aren’t we good enough for!? And why does their opinion matter, or why should it be of more importance than our own? So, coming to the realisation that I am good enough, and that no one else has the right to tell me I’m not, has been monumental in allowing me to step out and express who I really am to the world. Sure it’s scary, but I overcome it by reminding myself that I am amazing, that I can achieve whatever I set my heart to, and that I don’t need to prove anything to anyone else.

HOW DID OPENING UP AND ‘BEING AUTHENTICALLY YOU’ AFFECT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU OR YOUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEM?

I found it hard at first, and to be honest sometimes still do, as some people don’t understand the field that I’m working in, and aren’t open to learning about it, so it does feel awkward occasionally. So in that respect, not a lot has changed with them. Others have dropped away, and that’s totally ok. I recognise that we’re different people on different paths, and although we once needed each other and were in each others lives for a purpose, that just isn’t the case anymore, and it’s ok to move on.
The most amazing part about ‘being myself’ though, is that it’s definitely led me to form deeper connections and form close relationships with so many more like-minded women, including my beautiful Mum! ‘Your vibe attracts your tribe’, so if you start living the life you were meant to, and are being yourself, you attract wonderful people into your life who are doing the same thing!  You find the people who really just ‘get you’.

DID YOU FACE ANY JUDGEMENTS OR CRITICISMS, WHETHER FROM YOURSELF OR OTHERS?

Most definitely from myself. My relationship with myself has absolutely transformed from how it used to be years ago, but I would still have niggling fears, worrying if I was doing the right thing, or stressing that I would express myself in a way that other people thought was weird, and I would embarrass myself. 
I felt judged from some others as well. Nobody actually said anything negative to me, but certain people (especially some who are close to me) seemed to (and still do) completely ignore what I was doing, turning a blind eye to it and never asked me about it- because they either didn’t agree, didn’t know or understand so had fears around it, or to be honest they just aren’t very open-minded people, and are stuck in their conventional ways. This silence from some actually made me feel a lot worse about it than if they would have talked to me about it in the first place. It made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for them and don’t meet their standards- which on reflection I realise is so crazy. But I learnt a lesson from this, and it’s to never judge or criticise people for what they want to do, because everyone is on their own path, following their own bliss, and you don’t have to agree with it or understand it. Just respect it. You never know how your words, or silence can affect someone else.

WHAT IS YOUR TRUE ESSENCE? THE NATURAL PART OF YOUR BEING THAT MAKES YOU SPECIAL.

When I thought about this question, the words calm, connected, wild and free came to mind. Deep down I just feel like I crave connection to everything natural- the Earth, the sun, the stars, the moon, water, plants, people, myself- just everything in the Universe! I want to immerse myself in it, and completely embrace a natural way of living in alignment with natural rhythms. I want to feel wild and free, like no one or nothing is holding me back or keeping me stuck, and I can live however I choose. Throughout my life, I’ve had the tendency to express myself in ways that are anything but calm, though deep down I know that’s my natural state, so I feel like part of my journey in life is rediscovering and embracing that part of me. When it comes to being around others though, I feel like I’m a calming, compassionate presence who can read and understand people well, inspiring and helping them feel comfortable enough to open up and express themselves.

WHERE DO YOU FIND BEAUTY AND INSPIRATION?

Nature. I absolutely love it. Everywhere you look you find something new, something beautiful and unique- it truly inspires me. 
I’m also really drawn to and inspired my ancient, traditional cultures, particularly the Native Americans- I have no idea why (possibly from Pocahontas? haha!) but I feel really connected to them, and have this urge deep down to run off to live with an ancient tribe and disconnect from the Western World. I think what I love is how these cultures just possessed this ancient wisdom, being so in touch with nature, the universe and themselves. Respecting all living things, understanding natural rhythms, feeling connected to spirit, finding beauty everywhere, and appreciating that everything has a purpose. They just got it! It was such a holistic approach to living, and I think it’s absolutely beautiful. We’re so disconnected from ourselves and our surroundings now, and it’s really sad that we’ve lost that. So in saying that, other people who are connected with themselves and who are passionately living a life that lights them up, which is in alignment with their natural essence, really inspire me too!

AS A CHILD, WHAT DID YOU ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO DO?

I was so creative! I loved to draw, paint, dance, play dress-ups, make potions from flowers my neighbour and I found in the garden, build boats and homes for fairies with twigs and leaves, invent games outside with my siblings, and up until about mid-primary school I absolutely loved to read- until I got old enough to feel embarrassed about it as it was such a nerdy thing to do, and I stopped. I used to write letters and draw pictures for the fairies, and each morning when I woke up, they’d left a reply- mini hand-written, colourful, glittery rolled-up scrolls! It was adorable.
I was also a really nurturing and caring child, and would look after my younger siblings to help Mum out.

WHAT LIGHTS YOU UP AND WHY?

I think what lights me up the most is seeing other peoples faces lit up with smiles, just radiating pure joy. This is why I love my job so much! Helping women recognise how amazing they really are and how far they’ve come is so heartwarming and inspiring. The people closest to me in my life light me up, and for the same reasons- seeing them happy makes me happy. And of course the sun! Feeling its warmth on my skin honestly changes my mood and makes me feel so full. I long to feel forever warm, and am still learning to live in a climate that I really don’t love, but I’m so grateful for any beam of sunlight I can get!

WHEN LIFE GETS BUSY, OVERWHELMING AND THE NEGATIVITY STARTS TO CREEP IN, HOW DO YOU UNWIND AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO ‘JUST BE’?

When I find myself feeling overwhelmed, frustrated or exhausted, I usually stop whatever I’m doing and get up and go and lay outside in the grass, bask in the sunshine, and fill my lungs with fresh air. I might have a tea, a sleep, meditate, turn on my essential oil diffuser, get a massage, soak in a hot bath, find my husband for cuddles, or go for a short walk to the park to clear my head- or to the beach if I’m lucky enough to be near it! It’s amazing that when my mind is crowded with busyness, how much more calmness and clarity comes to me when I leave the house and start walking by myself, with no music to distract me or anyone else to talk to. So many beautiful ideas and thoughts fill my mind, and by the time I get home I’m feeling amazing, relaxed and full of inspiration! Mother Nature is good at that!
I think the most important thing to remember when you’re feeling stressed or overwhelmed is to step away from any form of technology, as it’s still keeping you wired. So although watching TV or scrolling through Insta might feel relaxing, you’re still bombarding your poor, exhausted brain with information. Give it some love by disconnecting for a little while!

WHAT MESSAGE DO YOU HAVE FOR OTHER WOMEN WHO ARE WANTING TO RECONNECT WITH THEIR OWN NATURAL WAY OF BEING AND FIND THE BEAUTY WITHIN THEMSELVES?

Find what lights you up, and go and do that!
Let go of everything that’s causing you stress or holding you back. Stop worrying about what other people think of you. Their opinions don’t matter. What matters is that you’re happy and you’re living your life for YOU.

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6 Comments

  1. Robyn

    Beautiful!

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    • Heidi

      Thanks Mum <3

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  2. Renae

    Loooove this insight into your beautiful soul, Heidi! you are a true gem <3 love ya x

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    • Heidi

      Thanks babe!! Right back at ya :) xx

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  3. Angela

    Definitely an amazing woman ? xx

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    • Heidi

      Aw thanks Angela! :) xx

      Reply

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